Recently, fellow blogger AGMA made some observations about dating in the modern age, including a reference to the “spark” in a relationship. You can check out her post here. That post, combined with some of the comments and a song in my playlist rotation made me take a closer look at my marriage of almost 17 years.
JD and I regularly ask each other why. Why do you love me? Why are we still together after all the fuck ups? And by fuck ups I don’t mean cheating – to my knowledge neither of us has strayed. Who the hell would put up with us? By fuck ups I mean the several thousand dollar purchase we made online that turned out to be worthless; or the loss of our home and land after struggling several years to save it. And then there’s JD’s depression which can still obscure almost everything else at times. Not to mention that we often disagree about finances. (I would never have bought a 50” television on my own!)
So what does keep us together? It’s an interesting question and I’m not sure I’ll ever have an answer that makes sense. But Chris Ledoux’s song calls it gravitational pull. That works for me.